Are all days amazing? Heck no! And yes I still battle pain. But my mind has never been more clear on what I want, what I am capable of doing, and about the life I choose to live.
Yep I used to start my day groggy and searching for my alarm to hit snooze then roll my eyes "on the inside" dreading actually getting up. I was NOT a morning person! That was my story for 49 years! I was a true NIGHT OWL! I thrived in the late evening hours, got creative, and did all the things. At least that what I told myself...however... Reality check 🤦🏼♀️ I was escaping from the world. Escaping from facing ME head on. Escaping from actual conversations with people. Escaping from ALL the pain.Living with chronic pain from 1992- 2008, 16+ years, was hard. Having any energy in the midst of pain was hard. Seeing each moment as an adventure was hard. Smiling through it all was hard. And most of all seeking to find a cure, when all those health care people wanted to just mask the symptoms and put me on more medication, was hard.
Something clicked 10 years ago and I said enough is enough. I became my best advocate in spite of what friends and family said. "Get your rest. Don't do that! You know it will set you back a few days. But what did the doctor say? Don't stop your medication, you'll regret it and it will be harder for you." And on and on and on. Everything in life is hard. Choose your hard. I wanted to thrive in life. I didn't want to just survive the hand I had been dealt.
Today I'm at the gym at 4:30am. I'm moving my body. I'm now a true morning person and I seek out my miracles each day, each moment. I am grateful for the persistence and the drive that God gave me. It just took a while to find it. It has been hard. But oh so worth it. I was totally exhausted from being sick and tired. Are all days amazing? Heck no! And yes I still battle pain. But my mind has never been more clear on what I want, what I am capable of doing, and about the life I choose to live. In my pursuit of living well, I embraced me and all of my quirks, my "stuff", & the things that maybe some people don't like or agree with. I am who I am and make no apologies. I'm living my best life. You can too! #beyou #bereal #beinspired #thepursuitoflivingwell #podcast #laughoften #faband50 #dreambig